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February 12th, 2009

college bullshit

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apparently i have to know what i want to do and where i want to go to college today. 
The only option my father sees is going to concordia and becoming
a lutheran grade school teacher.  he keeps telling me to pray about
it and see what i want to do.  Then i tell him im interested in art
and i don't really know what i want to do and he flips.  he saying
"i can't afford to pay for college cause i got no fucking money!"
well more like yelling.  and im just sitting there thinking, so
basically i have no choice. 

yeah for freedom!

January 29th, 2009

Beauty

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Unspoiled Beauty

Note:
Just a little poem I wrote.  Inspired by William Cullen Bryants' poem Thanatopsis.
Enjoy & feedback is appreciated!

 

Open The Door..... )

January 9th, 2009

I apparently have given up on trying to personalize my livejournal page.  I cannot put things where I want them to go and it is just so frustrating!  I don't really feel like writing anymore. 

November 20th, 2008

Stalked

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   I feel like I'm being followed right now.  Well not at this exact moment but awhile ago.  Two incidents occurred before and I thought that was the end of it then.  Now I see it has resurfaced. 

Let me go back and explain how this stalking this started.  Well it was the late afternoon around when school started up again and I was just hanging out at home.  I forget how I noticed the man outside just sitting in his maroon car.  Maybe it was because he just looked like he didn't belong here or I just got done watching a scary movie that triggered something in my mind.  Regardless of that I did indeed notice this man in a white button down shirt, bald, glasses, and smoking.  I kept peeking out the window to see if he was still there and I saw him looking in his fold down mirror and check himself.  Then he did the oddess thing, he pulled out mouthwash and started rinsing his mouth out.  After he was satified he spit the liquid out the window, started up his car, and left. 

Another day or maybe it was later that same day just at night?  I don't remember.  Another person in a jeep was parked somewhere near where this man earlier was.  The man had a laptop and was doing something and at first glance I thought it was a cop.  But why wasn't he in a cop car?  Then I thought he could be an undercover cop!  Why though? 

Nothing like that happens in real life, so that was automatically crossed out.  The other option in my mind was someone hired to watch a person and see their routine or something?  I didn't figure it out and finally let the whole thing of people watching my family go after school started.

Now to the present, today, November 20, 2008.  Why is that same guy out there?  What the fuck is going on here?  I thought this whole weird paranoia was over and done with!  I come home, eat, and go out to walk my dog up the street and guess who happens to be parked opposite my house.  THAT MAN.  In that maroon car, glasses, head still bald.  I try not to panick walking up the street toward Hillard.  My mind is of course racing at this point and I act as normal as I can.  I keep glancing back at the man and he is smoking a cigarette(I am still comtemplating whether I should go outside and pick it and put it in a platic bag for DNA evidence) in his car with his drivers window all the way open and his radio on.  Just the radio, not the engine.  At this point I turn back around to head back to my house.  I was hoping he didn't notice my west hoodie indicating the school I attend, I zip my coat up concealing the hoodie as a precaution pretending it was too cold.  As I near my drive about two houses away I notice he turned his car on.  The red brake lights are on and he is just finishing his cigarette.  I slow my pace to see what he does next.  He takes his time putting the car into drive and driving away down the street toward the pet shop.  I don't go into my driveway until I know he's gone.  He turned right and I was thinking maybe he spotted me looking his way and thought it best to drive around the block, you know how it goes. 

Going inside I unleash my dog and go to tell my dad what happend, again.  All he said was the guy must've been warming up his car(which I know is total bullshit) and lives in one of the apartments.  Then I call Jamie and tell her.  She of course recalls me telling her of the other situation happening. 

A strange day, very strange.

November 9th, 2008

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yah i know im bad i suck okay?  i come here but i never write anything.  i dont even keep a written journal right now.  i usually am one to keep a diary of some sort but i have been busy lately with school, work, friends, reading, & keeping up with my many obsessions. 
   I was quite upset last thursday when fox did not air a new episode of fringe and instead had something about the election.  i dont want to hear anymore about the election k?  In church today my pastor mentioned something good that I thought appied here.  He said at least our elections do not include was and bloodshed like in the past in other times.  Well I suppose it still happens but I mean in general. 
So there's this concert....... and it involves a favorite band of mine.....at a location fairly close to my town......but the tickets and everything will cost a shit load of cash!  I am willing to make the sacrifice to see Oasis though.  ::sqeeee:: I get excited about these things. 
Ahhh yes I have been thinking whilst cleaning my room earlier this evening and I have realized that I write better when I am not on any medication!  I have been on meds for two years straight now.  Now I'm wondering how much better I could have progressed in that time period to improve on my writing!  All this wasted time!  Off my meds then, it's decided.  Well sadly it's not as simple as that.  If I go cold turkey on this I might end up going crazy or in the hospital.  Oh you don't even know what I'm taking!  I take Zoloft the infamous antidepressants.  I believe it helps me and my mood,  but holds me back when it comes to writing.  You know I'm rambling a bit.  That and I have to eat, shower, and sleep.  I promise not to disappear again for three months!

megg

July 30th, 2008

My personality type: the dreamy idealist

July 12th, 2008

peabodys concert

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The past night I spent at peabodys seeing Dope perform.  There was Kittie but I don't like their stuff so I wasn't there for them.  Anew Revolution is a cool band that was there.  I haven't heard of them beforehand.  Dope's set was kickass and their stage presence was phenominal.  All the lights and shit was awsome.  Me and my bud Jamie were having a great time.  At one point everyone started moshing so I was happy.  Lots of sexy guys there : )  hehehe.  

So I'm leaving for camp and yes I am nervous, but not as much as I usually am.  Just give me an hour or two to get used to a situation and I'm fine after that.  I'm excited but then I am hoping it will be as good as last year.  I don't want to be disappointed.  The foods great by the way.  Lots to eat there and loads of shit to do there.  (i.e. wax hands, make bracelets, swimming, hiking, canoeing, rock talks, campfire singing : ) hmmmmm ect.)  

I must be going for my body is craving a slushie and I should go fix that.  
So long,
Megan

July 9th, 2008

 

Title: A Stubbed Toe and Other Events at the Jedi Temple: 1/?
Author: Velvetemr73
Genre: Angst & Slash & a bit of Humor 
Pairing: Obi/Ani
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I do not own Star Wars nor will I ever own anything more than the movies and a book.
Summary:  Anakin has to get his master to talk about what is troubling him and he will stop at nothing to get the information out of Obi!

June 30th, 2008

Home Again!

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 I am back home yahhh!!  
I have heard from friends that the 9 days I was gone it rained every single one of them.  And it has ceased 
to break the chain.  

I was reading a reply to my comment on a story I read and the person was wondering if I wrote SW fics.  I do write as you can hopefully see, but I'm too embarassed to do SW and post to a community.  My goal then is to someday post at least one fic on SW.  Hows about by the end of the summer, I have to complete this.  Okay, it's settled then.  I must get to work on planning a plot.

o geez what have I gotten into.

<3 
megg

June 22nd, 2008

hillbillys

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That's what our cabin neighbors are it seems like.  There are about six cabins in a part of the campground we're staying at and this big family rented out four or five of em.  They have very southern accents and they are so darn loud.  They're talking about cooking weenies and asking each other 'how many weenies ya'll want?'  and 'hey, don't burn my weenie!'  I was trying so hard not to burst out laughing.  

Not much happened today. Dad bought a t'shirt, i didnt cos i didnt find any good ones i'd actually wear.  There are a bunch of junk gift shops in pigeon forge.  I went to Riveredge's arcade and played pinball and this motorcycle game.  It was fun.  You know, I hate swimming all by myself, it is kind of intimidating.  I want to go but just by myself is no fun.

Went to the wax museum. It was pretty cool but when you just stare at a figure for a bit,  your mind plays tricks on you pretending the wax figure is moving.  
There was a horror movie section.  The exorcist scared me and the guy from texas chainsaw massacre scared the hell outta me.  I didn't even get close to the exorcist girl.  I did for the latter mentioned but jumped when the chainsaw noise started unexpectedly.

We are leaving Pigeon Forge and Gatlinburg early tomorrow morning.  Why early when our next stop is only 30 miles away?  Hell if I know.  My daddio says so we can stop a bunch at different places.  

I'm supposed to be watching the weather for cherokee forecast.  

So there were less cars and people today guess they headed home for the start of a new week.  Still a bunch of motorcycles.  Yesterday driving around offroad and coming back from that we saw all these bikes going the opposite way up the curvy road.  There were photographers scattered along the way taking pictures of them coming around bends.  I kept telling my dad to go faster so he didn't mess up a picture.  He didn't listen much because the road was to turny and such.  I've seen so many motor trikes(I believe thats what the three wheel bikes are called) the past days.  

::yawn::  
I'm tired from today.
We went on this arts and crafts route but left too early and most of the shops weren't opened yet.  I didn't see much that interested me anyway so I didn't get upset.  

Well, I will write again soon possibly.
Maybe not cause we're going to be on the Blue Ridge Parkway.  No internet, not that I'm that much saddened by the thought of that.  
Hmmm....... Oh yes, I read a lot of reviews of people who have driven on the parkway and everyone said it was beautiful!  I'm excited about it, I just hope my nerves don't get the better of me.

Now I will have to pitch a tent after tonight.  

I must be going now, 
so long.

Megg

June 21st, 2008

What does LiveJournal mean to you? Has that changed since you started your LiveJournal account?


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 oh god, livejournal is one of my top websites I visit.  I absolutely am addicted to lj.  It has changed since I started an account because now I visit this site more often.  I love it. Period.

June 20th, 2008

Writer's Block: LJ Comments

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Are you more of a comment-receiver or a comment-maker on LiveJournal? Why?


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I am a comment-maker.  I read a lot of stories on lj and look for icons.

June 19th, 2008

Day 1 of Trip

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Gatlinburg Trip- Day 1

 

                I didn’t nessecarily mind all the driving, but after we ate dinner at the oringinal KFC I felt like absolute shit.  I don’t mean just a little tummy ache but full blown anxiety shit.  This is one of the reasons I hate having a very bad anxiety problem.  I started to get a cold sweat while we were driving and then to make matters worse  I also got car sick.  Luckily I didn’t spew all over the car.  I am now sitting at the campsite for the night and still recovering from it.  It was possibly an anxiety attack.  Hey you know how people say to talk to someone who is hurt or something?  Well when my dad was talking to me it did make me forget about the need to pass out.  Talking helps. 

I do not feel good.  I want to get lost in a book.  I say I love to travel, and don’t get me wrong I do, but sometimes my anxiety and nervousness gets in the way of all the fun and experiences.  That’s also why I don’t mind being alone for a while because if I’m at home and everthings good, I’m perfectly content.  I might just move to the city and fuck it, I don’t know what I want to do.  This is what’s holding me back in life.  For example, hmmmmm, I don’t have a job, I kept talking about getting one and went and got an application at a few joints, but did I follow through?  No, I was(and am) scared.  Then why do I want a motorcycle?  I don’t make any sense. 

                Before I forget have to tell you the reader that when we went to the first KFC and I went potty it was extremley cold in there.  I looked down this old floor vent where the air was coming out of and I was like, hmmm I wonder what’s down there, looks spooky. 

                Whelp, I be going cos I still feel like shit and maybe if I do something else it might take my mind  off of wanting to FUCKING DIE!!

Have a spledid evening!

<3 Megg

June 16th, 2008

harry potter quiz

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Harry Potter Character Combatibility Test
created with QuizFarm.com
You scored as Ron Weasley

You are Ron. You have a heart of gold. You would do anything for your friends, even if you sometimes become jealous of your achievements. However, this is does not effect the fact that you would defend them at all costs and give them your loyalty. You want to be appreciated by others and be recognized for something great.

Ron Weasley

88%

Remus Lupin

81%

Luna Lovegood

75%

Harry Potter

72%

Sirius Black

69%

Neville Longbottom

69%

Bellatrix Lestrange

63%

Albus Dumbledore

59%

Severus Snape

59%

Oliver Wood

53%

Percy Weasley

53%

Hermione Granger

50%

Draco Malfoy

44%

Lord Voldemort

41%

Who introduced you to LiveJournal? Why did you first open an account or get involved?


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 My fascination with star wars and ewan mcgregor somehow or other got me here through a group called "Feel My Force".
A community for ani/obi slash. 

Romance of the Jedi

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 a wonderful fanvid 
i didn't find or create it
i was just lurking on lj 
when i came across it 
on someones page

http://www.transbuddha.com/content/romance-of-the-jedi/

::squeees::

Okay now to serious stuff.
I will be going on a trip to Tennessee and up throught Blue Ridge Mountains.
So that means I will be gone for 10 days and have no internet!
I will miss livejournal ::sniff sniff::

I will post picture possibly when I get back.
Oh I am leaving in two or three days.
We do not have a very set itinerary as you can see.

<3 megg

June 15th, 2008

my boredom estonishes me

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 hmmm very scary indeed.....http://www.nytimes.com/2008/06/13/world/asia/13fat.html?_r=1&no_interstitial&oref=slogin

you should totally goto youtube and watch swan lake.  i believe it is the first one listed when you search for it.  pretty amazing.

May 27th, 2008

Story: Deserted

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Title: Deserted
Genre: Romance, Violence
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Alex/Jeremy
Disclaimer: Tis mine
Summary: This is about a boy trying to make it in a cruel world that does not accept him and his ways.



May 18th, 2008

okay so this is an entry from my old account that i thought was pretty interesting.  
see for yourself.

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool...just type it in man!

Opening Credits: Tired of You-Tommy Lee

This is going to be interesting.

Waking Up: Deadly Sinners-3 Inches of Blood

This is going be scary waking up to! I'll wet myself.


First Day At School: Diamond Dog-Beck


Falling In Love: A Message-Coldplay

awww how perfect!!!!!


Losing Virginity: Still The Pipes Are Calling-Suidakra

What the fuck. I don't want to lose my virginity to a black metal song.

Fight Song: Trust- Trip Fuse

umm this kinda works cause it has energy to it. Maybe a slow mo fight. yeah thats it!


Breaking Up: White Shadows-Coldplay

shadows

Prom: Punishment Divine-Blind Guirdian

so my prom will be at a concert?? I wonder what dress I'll be wearing to that!

Life: King of Suede-Weird Al

Okay, right about now i regret putting weird al on my playlist. dammit!!

Mental Breakdown: Crossing the Rubicon-The Human Abstract

That works. It's a crazy song.

Driving: Naturmnftikk-Ulver

I am totally going to fall asleep to this while driving. Unless I'm on a life changing trip??

Flashback: Darkest Nights-As I Lay Dying

Getting Back Together: London Loves-Blur

Wedding: Fabulous Disaster-Exodus

Well that tells me a lot. Thanks

Birth of Child: The Scientist-Coldplay

Yah!! My child's gonna be a genious!!

Final Battle: Never Let It Go-Mushroomhead

This really works!!!

Death Scene:Pawn Shop-Sublime

great

Funeral Song: Off The Ground-Logh

It's a sad slow song. aww i like it!!


End Credits: Sparkling Diamonds-Moulin Rouge

That just gives everyone bad ideas about who I really was! Like I don't
love diamonds.

May 15th, 2008

obi-wan video

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 okay watching this video i almost cried!!  im serious.  it fit so perfectly with the story.
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guess u gotta click the link
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